Sunday, August 31, 2008
Why Iris what happen to you?
Even if the whole world was yours,
Would that that bring you happiness?
Why do you stare up at the lonesome sky?
Why, let's see you smile
I know what you're like,
How you aren't good at putting things into words, so why not...
What happened in days long past?
In your eyes, as turn your gaze away from me
Do you know of such a warmth,
One that can embrace you on those lonely nights by yourself?
Why are you so worked up on appearances?
Why, open up your heart
I know you've had a heavy cross to bear,
Why Iris , Why you choose to walk alone?
Why are you lonely in heart?
Why are you tired?
Why Iris you don't want to open up your heart?
Why are lost
WHY ....Iris ..why
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Iris iris iris
every name have each meaning
because of this name
many people miss understand i am a girl
Iris is a name of God in Greece legend
the god of rainbow
希腊神中话彩虹女神(在荷馬史詩Iliad中為諸神的信使)
also a plan name
鳶尾屬植物;鳶尾;蝴蝶花
well also a song name
by Goo Goo Doll
the song is like this
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
Chorus
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When every thing's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Verse 3
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When every thing's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Chorus
I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When every thing's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
well it have meaning to me
the song the name
well
some one don't like my name
cause she say Iris is full of sadness
she like my real name more
ha hah a
is it?
Or iris is full of sadness
too heavy to carry on?
Ares is a totally different mean
Ares is the God of war in Greece legend ~
big different is it?
or i should change a name
one is full of sadness
another name of god of war~
hah ha
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Suddenly ...fall into my own memory
when i have nothing to do
this will happen
i know is a bad habit
but i can;t control it
Are you still doing well Young ?
my primary friend
suddenly find out the game you give me
you still doing well at there?
since you leave Malaysia this place
this is the first time i thinking of you
i have 5 years didn't go back my primary school
the reason?
too many thing i don't want to look back
........
some time i still will have nightmare on it
Young still remember Fiona ?
i got news that her hair is long now
can;t imagine is it?
ha hah a i know
still remember Jayson ?
yeah he have gf an his own dancing team now
with Sean ( he have move to pearl already )
Joshua have a bend
ha ha ha with Danial them
thing do change fast is it?
but i guess i still the same
or do i change already ?
i don't know
cause no one even tell me
still remember that when i was primary 2
try to be friend with Jayson them ?
but i guess i was too annoying
so they pull a water down on me
ha ha ha........
since i come in to junior i though it will change
i will have some friend
but i was wrong
...ha ha hah
memory are too heavy to me .
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
I really wonder is every one know what is the meaning of love ?
many teenagers looking for love
but do they understand it?
what they really want?
well some people looking for lover
just because they need some one
when they are sad
after that throw them away
when you feel sad emo insane
you need some one to beside you
comfort you
after that
you throw them away
is that fair to them?
many people looking for lover just for fun
meet another pretty girl or handsome boy
throw aways the bf or gf they have now
many people love to ask their bf or gf
do you love me?
do you really love me?
or i mean what to you
well you really want to know the answer?
you have the brave to face the true answer?
Monday, August 18, 2008
The problem we can only leave it there now
my mom won't let me pay
teacher can't move
so we just leave it there
can;t move at all
people laugh i have not emotion
people tired i smile
this is how i live this day
empty life i know
give it all the way
just want some place to rest
give it all the way
just want some place to go to
give it all the way
just want some one to hold ....
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Things going worst
well
cause i lost the key
so i have to change the lock
well that still small problem
the bigger problem is the microphone case
this week last week
i still can;t find it( obviously i can't )
so i must pay ( cause is under my responsibility )
RM 700( 845s RM 3oo++ 845s RM 400++)
why it will become rm 700 not rm 1200?
cause Monday we at air count room find out 845s
so air count room also lost one microphone ..
=_____=
why i have RM 2oo here
so i must take another Rm5oo out
but is at bank
so i have to tell my mother
of cause
she is angry about it
well she say why i must pay?
i answer cause is my responsibility
but she won;t listen
sigh
so she say she want go school and understand it
i really afraid it will make some trouble out to ANDY teacher
sigh
really stress now
feel so useless
many problem come out
just want a place to rest
feel sorry to andy teacher .....
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Microphone has lost
now even the audio room key also is gone
i had fail my english
today is bahasa same
0% yes is 0 %
get it?
0%
..........
school discipline want us tomorrow hand in our club member list
and the game project about primary camp
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
after that meeting
i feel my head is going to explode
feel so tired
Friday still have Chinese exam
after that
school sex education camp audio
the microphone must find out this week
only leave 2 day
where can i find it?
the hall?
we search before
not even a shadow
where is my audio room key?
my room
i still can;t find it
my house?
sigh
this gone that lost
why can't the god just make me disappear too
this will make me feel better i guess
sigh
Sunday, August 10, 2008
August 8 is the open day of Olympic
and........also is my friend ah De ( my club ex president ) birthday
some thing happen between me and him read this tired
yeah
for a friend
i still give you a later birthday wish
I wish you Happy Birthday
wish you can get good result in your UEC
and find can go study what you really like
ya for a friend
i apologize for i forgot about your birthday
ya
even now you don't want talk with me
even you look on me like i am a stranger to me
but we know each other for 5 year
ya it is fair
i forgot about your birthday
you forget i am your friend
ya Ah neng still don't know this
teacher Andy also
no body know what is going on between you and me
ya they didn't find out
2 boy use to be good friend
but now?
they are stranger
ya I wonder how you answer that woman who in the salon
we use to go there cut our hair
you answer this?
cause iris is too busy so he can;t come here?
or
i hate him?
never mind my friend
Happy Birthday my friend
Friday, August 8, 2008
My brother told me : career and family are the most impotent of a man life
now can any one tell me :
What make a man
man is what?
When a man in love with the girl love him so much and he also love her very much.....everyone say he have to take responsibility of his girl
how about he is going to leave the country for his career
and the girl beg he don't leave if not when he leave she will leave him forever
what should he do?
if he leave
people will say what a useless guy
if he don't leave this country to accomplish his career
he will lost the choice forever
what should he do??????????
my brother told me don't let ANY ONE ANY ONE EVEN MY GF stop my foot step
of my career ~
Yes my brother is right
i always say i know
i don;t even know a shit
i am just being stubborn only
ha hah ha hha hha hah
may be may be may be may be
i should stay alone
i should stay alone with my stubborn
hah ha hha hhah a hha hah
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
There is too many thing i didn't tell my parent
too many thing i didn't tell out
like : i get bully in my primary school
i get punish in school
too many thing ..what am i thinking
they all don't know
everything everything i keep inside
keep as a secret
i don't trust people
i over protect my self
what is the reason ?
i don't know
may be just my pass
i know i can't live with those pass
sigh
i lock my self up
i don't know where is the key
..................................................................................
now the microphone problem i really don't know how it going to solve
may be just have to wait and wait
my ex vice president ( ah neng ) ask me to help him to tell my ex president ( ah de ) to check his yahoo email ...how i going to tell him?
when he see me like i rape his mother ..you tell me : how i going to tell him to check his mail?
so i ask Alex to do it.... suck
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Sigh ........sigh ...
thing go worst ....
now even i want to pay also no use
teacher say it is not my fault ..
we have lock the door
that is all we can do
i ask what is the worst
he say he don't know
i say what can we do now?
he say he can only wait for the letter from principal department
what letter?
apologize letter?
or?
i really don't want see that
........
i don't want to face those problem alone
i just want a place to rest ...
can some one hug me in her bosom?..
Monday, August 4, 2008
Yes...the microphone still can't find it
..............................................................
now i really feel stress
can;t find those microphone out
teacher is done ....
....sigh
this morning till now
his face really tired
if can;t find it .......sigh
sigh......
i think i will pay for those 3 microphone
one microphone RM 400
3 = RM1200
i have money in the bank .....
i really don't like to tell this to my parent
sigh
really tired of this .................
think of this :
mom mom i need RM 1200
cause the school has lost 3 microphone
and is under my responsibility
i don't dare to think of my mother face
..........
now all i need just
Can any one lend me her should to i can lean on ..
tired...
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Yesterday i find out there is 3 microphone has gone in the audio room
the last day i open the audio room is on Thursday...St John practice ....
on 6 pm i start cleaning out the hall
and i 100 % sure the 3 microphone had put back to the audio room
Alex also see i put back ...and he also see me lock the door
and i still pull the lock to make sure it have locked
but on yesterday when i open the room
first i still haven't realize until i call Alex bring 2 microphone to the stage
he say: there is only leave one mice inside."
...........they is 5 microphone in the room
one i have take to the stage another is the audio room use
so where is another 3?
sigh
me Alex Ah mao
we find had all the hall
we found nothing .....
Today our school have singing contest
still is me do the audio
Julian and Danial come and help
sigh
first we had let the judges scold
scold us wasting time
scold us the music encore too big
.........you think i want this?
the hall are soooooooooooooooooooo empty ....
of cause will have encore
beside the mixer aren't those pro type .......
of cause will have encore ...
sigh
when we play the disk ..
we will have hear attack ....
sigh
.............nearly fainted ...
the champion song of singing contest senior group is 男人KTV
..can i say tired from this few day?
男人歌
唱给谁来听
我的歌
又唱给谁来听
又有谁願意听?
sigh
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Rules:Answer the questions, you can answer yes or no, but it may require some details.
Notify the person you tag by sending this link to them and by putting their name on the title of your tag post. You have to tag 20 persons only.
Name 20 people before you answer the questions:
I don't have much friend T.T
1)What was your most embarrassing moment in your life?
call wrong people my mom =.=
2)What is worst meal you ever had?
l2 mile kolo mee the worst suck thing i ever eat
3)What one thing make hairs on your back stand up and creep you out?
a muscle man say i love you to me and try to kiss me ..yuacks
4)What one movie made you have nightmare after watching?
ghost movie
5)Have you ever broken bone or need stitches?
before entered primary school ..i break my head
6)What was your worst nightmare date?
-sorry can;t answer ..single for 17 years
7)What your worst birthday gift?
worst ?if have people celebrates birthday with me .i already feel very happy
8)Ever been skinny dipping?
no
9) Have you ever stolen any thing?
...money ~~~10 sen ......
10)Have you ever lied to your parents?
yup i hide my thing to them
11)Have you gotten in trouble with law?
nope
12)Have you ever taken nude photos of self or make sex video?
I am not Edison chan ...
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