As i expected my final project get screwed deep, cause my time management sucks, nothing and no one to blame actually, it wont solve anything too
2012 just seriously not being nice to me, so many thing happen, i try to fix it, it just wont work.
Relationship just get worst and worst, even though she is coming back on next year January but we are not meeting, whatever i dont have time for that
i am digging idea for my final project, but i cant find any, i dont know what i am good at, i dont want to wake up everyday and do nothing, i hate it.
Everything seems falling apart on me, i try to catch it, but i can't; everyone seems to be moving forward, i try to catch up, end up i am still staying on the same places

Come on brain, you are better than this, come on lets work this out together, lets give me some good idea.

Today is November 14, my project deadline is 24 of November
and ya my car model basic shape had come out, now i am stuck in somewhere there and yes it is killing me 

It is first of October , i just finish work and done everything at home
and i just had a bad bad day
my parent keep on asking me what should i do after graduated and what can i do
i am stuck at my final project
my parent is away to Twain for 2 weeks
and my have do everything : cook cleaning and dry clothes
i dont know it just so full of stress
no one to talk to
and today when the weather start the heavy rain i was at gym, and of cause my room was floods, and i just change the bed sheet yarn
and my brother room was floods of cause, and ya, shit happen
the worst? i had a fight with the customer, which end up she wanted to called my boss

my second brother always told me: you had be a good boy always , you dont drink, you dont smoke, you dont go clubbing, enjoy your life, learn how to realest your stress.

I guess he is right, so my pressure reach the top and blow off me today, but i guess i didn't really expose.

My senior was right, some question you just have to find the answer by your own.

i am now officially   21 years old which mean i am adult.
take dinner with my family
but i do receive a surprise this year, celebrate my birthday at my working cafe
awesome

nothing pretty much
sleeping 17 hours per week

we always love to lie
no matter to who
the most common person that we always lie to is ourself
keep telling it is okay it is fine but actually it is not
keep on lie and lie
until the day it had become a compulsory imply action to ourself
living in our wonder land
we love to lie to ourselves
because it is easer than lie to others
人总是爱欺骗自己，因为那比欺骗别人更容易

happy Flooded new year every one
why flooded? because kuching was flooded today 

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我和你啊　存在一種危險關係
彼此挾持　這另一部分的自己
本以為這完整了愛的定義
那就乖乖的守護著你

相愛變成　猜忌懷疑的爛遊戲
規則是要　憋著呼吸越靠越近
但你的溫柔　是我唯一沉溺
你是愛我的　就不怕有縫隙
在我心上用力的開一槍
讓一切歸零　在這聲巨響
如果愛是說什麼都不能放
我不掙扎　反正我也　沒差

人質在這一刻得到釋放
相愛的純粹落得如此下場
你滿意嗎　我們都別　說謊

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